i was dumped by my girlfriend in august. 2 weeks later i was diagnosed with diabetes. now my life has turned upside down. i can't go out to socialize at the clubs anymore. my friends don't call me anymore. i am so lonely. i feel like i've been abandoned. i have a 14 yr old daughter that i see once in a while. there is not a day that goes by without me wanting to hang myself. i cry about 5 times a day. i don't feel like a man anymore and my depression seems to be getting worse. i've been on anti-d's four times now and each time made me feel worse. some nights i go to bed i ask god that i don't wake up in the morning. i know it's all up to me but i can't seem to get out of this.i really sometimes think i'm living in hell. i'm going to therapy but it seems when i try to use those tools to help my depression, it's just is too powerful for those positive thoughts to shine through. i am the most negative and angry person i know. but i hate these things about me and i want to change them. i do think i have a good side that is for sure. i feel like anakin skywalker slowly being taken by the dark side. they say depression is a serious complication to diabetes. can anyone relate to that? i hope that i don't suffer from this for a decade let alone a year. because i can't do it. jeezuz! help.
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