Will I ever feel happy again?
The last eight years of my life have been the worst years of my life. That is when everything started to tumble down hill. I have people tell me these are the best years of my life. How can they if I have lost several loved ones who were very close to me? And when I am also taking care of my sick GrandMother? I have faked myself into the I'm happy mood for 7 years now. I still don't know how it truely feels to be happy. Will I ever have that feeling back again?