All my life it seems like I've been taking care of other people...friends, family, co-workers, etc. When I had my miscarriage 6days ago, it seem like no one was there for me. And my roommate that I've know for 16years didn't offer me any encouragement, now mind you she's a mother of 4 and I've been her kids God mother and have done any and everything for them. It really hurt me that she claimed she didn't know what to say. My Mom dumps her problems on me and I found myself not beind able to grieve for my own loss but instead to put my feelings aside so that I can help some of the selfish people in my life. Which by the way I'm so good at, solving other peoples problem and making a mess of my own life. I feel alone like I have no one to turn to. No shoulder to lean on. I'm starting to realize who my friends truly are and its making me more depress b/c I thought this girl was truly my friend, how can you not know how to console some one I've done it for her several times and I just think it's excuse b/c of her guilt of not even wanting me to have my own child....I need a shoulder!!!
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