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why not die?

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i have thought about this alot...over and over again i have just been wondering why dont i just die...kill myself and get it over with....i dont have much to live for...any friend i ever had for a short time leaves as soon as i get depressed...i have no support and no listens....i dont think even God can save me now...i have come up with a 5 year plan(well maybe less)...i do have a boyfriend that wants to marry me so i figure get married...have a kid...kill myself...why not i would have accomplished almost all the things people regret before i die...and before u even start rattling of answers about how much people will miss me...they will get over it!!!! they are sick of dealing with me....i am a burden to them...i wont ever get better so whats the point...i will be depressed on some level every day of my life...i think God really hates me sometimes...and yes i kow spirtually i could go to hell for killing myself but at this point i dont care...why?...its hell just waking up every morning dealing with some other bullshit disappointment after another...no cares about me really...they dont want to hear about my dark thoughts...all they want to hear about is the happy shit i make up most of the time...so why not die????...what am i going to miss out on....NOTHING!!!!!!!
ZAZAS
ZAZAS
I hope you feel better soon.
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:o( I'm sorry your feeling so down. I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way....Yes you would be missed!!! Is anyone home with you right now??
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Are you OK???? You can message me if you need to talk to someone right now!! It does help..
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because if you choose to terminate your life then you are giving in to this illness. When you hit rock bottom your sense of reasoning goes out the door and we tend to perceive that no-one would care or miss us if we were gone but in reality that is simply not true.

You can't fall from the floor, but you can still get up off it and move forward....even if it is very slowly
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i am home with my boyfriend but he basically ignores me when i get sad so it is just a waste of time talking to him
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WOW SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAVE IT ALL PLANNED OUT. BUT LET ME ASK YOU THIS. IF YOU HAVE A BABY AND GET MARRIED ARENT YOU WORRIED ABOUT HURTING THEM? DONT YOU THINK YOUR CHILD WILL NEED YOU?SOMEONE MIGHT ASK YOU THE SAME QUESTION WHY ARE YOU SO SET ON DOING THIS?I AM HERE AND WOULD LOVE TO TALK TO YOU I DO NOT LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE.HOPE YOU WILL TALK TO ME MORE YOU SOUND LIKE A GREAT PERSON. HUGS TO YOU
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i know u mean well but in order to pick yourself up...you have to have a reason...and i just dont have one anymore
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dont have kids and then kill urself that wouldnt be fair to the child. then they will end up hatin life and feeling lonely and they will need there mother.
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I agree with Lizzy, one of the major reasons why I haven't terminated myself because of my children. I just can't do it to them....
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Certain words are good flags -- never, always, ever -- those are difficult things to claim logically and rationally.

Thinking about how miserable life was, is or will be can propel anyone in a suicidal state.
4mytasha
4mytasha
I believed in the SAME thing. There can't POSSIBLY be a God cause He'd NEVER let me feel this pain but I have to believe. It's the only way to get through each day and I PROMISE, no matter how bad it is...(I know EVERYone says this to you) it DOES get better! I've had 5 days in a ROW and I question WHY? HOW? I'm the type "something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feeling too damn good."
MAYbe but I just got 5 GOOD days and who knows? MAYbe longer. This has NEVER happened to me and I'm 46 so hang in there. And....why NOT die or kill ourselves....cause God does NOT want us yet!!! I do have a story to go along with that if you're ever interested.
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Osteoron makes a good point.

Here's a simple reason for you....."because you CAN live and possess the ability to change things within your life" I'm not saying it will be easy by any means, but it is achievable, even if it is at a snails pace so to speak
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i have tried to kill myself like 6 time already...i have been in a hospital and been strapped to a bed...i not going through that again...God will either heal me(which i doubt) or i will just shot myself this time...quick and easy!!! :0)
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thanks for trying anywayz guys....
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Don't give up........
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