today is my wedding anniversary. i didnt even get a card from my husband. plus he said i needed to work out where to go out to eat at. why cant he do a surprise for me for once. was my birthday last week, and all i got was a paper back book. one i would like to read but i didnt get a card. and the things i do for his family on their birthdays. i buy them cards a cake and decorate the house for them.and we have a take out or take them out to eat. and he gives them 50 each birthday.now its our wedding anniversary and i didnt even get a card. we got cards from my dad and his wife and from his brother and sister in law. and thats all we got. our marriage has been rocky for a while now. we are celebrating our 6th wedding anniversary.and he told me if i wanted to do anything on our anniversary, it would have to be tonight or tomorrow night cos he is actually working overtime from sunday onwards. and he needs to. cos the man has got us in debt again, and i refuse to bail him out this time. he says i dont do anything around the house but i do, he just doesnt see it. he only sees the day that i dont do anything. we have both taken off our wedding rings now. but i want it to work. but i cant see that happening. he can be so selfish, and controlling. but he doesnt see that he is that way. no matter what, he always goes fishing on a sunday.not caring about how i feel. in fact this past sunday there wasnt a fishing match to go to, so he got up early and went fishing on his own. which i find very unusual. you would think as we are trying to make the marriage work, he wouldnt go fishing. but he does. he said when he got home we could go out and do something. but he fell asleep in the chair. so we didnt go out. but i want him not to go fishing this sunday. i cant see why he would go fishing on his own on sunday. i think he has someone else. and he uses that sunday to see that person. he says he isnt. but there you go.he walks the dog every night, and he is gone some nights 1 and a half hours walking the dog. i have told him before i think he is meeting someone on his walk. i should go with him one day. but i dont. i wish i could drive cos then i could maybe see where he is going. but i dont drive. but i do think he is probably seeing someone from work. thats the only place i can imagine. i might be a bit paronoid on this. i give him all my money each month. and he is still in debt. and i cant understand it. i just feel he thinks i am a piece of doo doo on his shoes. and this week i had a tooth extracted, and i developed a dry socket, so the dentist told me to take it easy for about a week, and that should help myself by resting as much as i can. cos i have terrible tooth ache now. well my whole mouth hurts. cos i had a partial denture made and its rubbing on my gums, and blistering.he says i sit on my lazy butt all day long whilst he is at work. but i dont do that. most of the time i am online looking for a job. cos he wants me to bring in more money. and he wants me to work full time. which i am unable to do that. he says i dont work in the house but i do he just doesnt notice it. i did four loads of laundry yesterday. he didnt realize that. he chooses to not notice it. i could clean this house from top to bottom and he woudlnt notice a thing i had done. but right now with ragging tooth ache all i want to do is sit down or lay down. my mouth hurts alot. so to shock him tonight i will clean up the livign room, dining room and have a candlelight dinner waiting for him when he gets home. i will show him who the better person is. he isnt going to bring me down like he has done in the past. and he cant say i didnt do anything. i cant go out to eat anyways, cos of my mouth. i wish i could. but i cant for now.
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