my b/f is usually so great but every once in a while he is so mean and he just doesn't see it. yes he works hard and makes damn good money, but he seems to think that because he gives me money and is making sure that we're in a nice place and we have nice things that that's showing me love. i just want him to come up to ME and wrap his arms around me, it's always the other way around. i'm usually the one that says i love you first, he said it to me first once and i asked if i was dying and nobody told me yet, because it doesn't happen very often. i feel loved by him but i don't feel wanted. not at all. he talks and i hear insults and put down but then i'm crazy because that's not what he's saying at all. WTF! my ears do work here!
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