I blame myself for letting both of my girls see me get physically and verbally abused. I feel that because of that they didnt come and tell me that they were also getting sexually abused besides the two above. I cant stop blaming myself for letting it happen in my own home with me in it. I thought that I was a good parent until I knew the full story about what was really going on. I just keep wondering why we blame ourselves even though we cant conrol other people. Above is just a couple of things that I blame myself for and cant stop even though I've tried. The more that we blame ourselve for the more depessed we get and so far. Does anyone know or have any ideas how we can stop blaming ourselves for things that other people do and say. I just dont know how to do it. It has been two years now. I've tried positive thinking, thinking of all the good things that I did for the girls like getting them out of that house, and I've just kept telling myself that I didnt abuse other people did. when I tell myself the last one , automaticly I start to think no I didnt do it but I let it happen and let them see me being physically and verbally abused. Which never helps any child, no matter how old they are. I could really just use some ideas right now because its starting to really get to me more and more and I dont want it to be the one thing that puts me over the edge, if you know what I mean. If you dont, read my journal and you should understand. I hope that no one else blames themselves as much as I do for things. If you do I'm sorry because I know how much it can and most likely does eat you up.
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