Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I swear...insurance companies try to kill off their patrons so they don't have to pay anything. I have been waiting since last week to get my new meds...actually same meds just increased dosage...insurance covers ALL the dosages EXCEPT the one I need. HOW WARPED IS THAT!!??!! Any how...a whole bunch of running around and phonecalls and anxiety later I find out that i got the pills approved but no one called to tell me. so I have been another 3 days without the right dosage for nothing cause the meds were there.
In the mean time, because I don't have them meds, my anxiety level has so increased that I am in full blown panic. I am in the parking lot at CVS Pharmacy shaking so hard I was turning into a human milkshake. I'm on my cellphone begging the nurse to get me a Xanax refill cause I absolutely can't go on like this another minute. I finally get the Xanax ok'd and she called it in. I walk inot the pharmacy and tell them I need the Xanax and I need it NOW! I am not going to make it one more minute without something to calm my beyond frazzled nerves.
THAT'S when I found out that the Paxil had been ready since the day before.
Okay, so now that ihave taken 1 Xanax and have made it safely home through the tears and the driving rain, I'm journalling this and then I am going to sit on the couch and turn into a couch potato for the rest of the night.
I am trying to see this as a blessing in my life. That somehow this is a gift from God and that this whole mess will glorify Him. All I know is that without Him in my life, I certainly could NEVER have gone through this. I certainly would have been DEAD a long time ago. This is my testimony to what God can do for us if we let Him.
I love You, Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship You
Oh, my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what You hear
May it be a sweet sweet sound
In Your ear.
Father God, I humble myself before you now. I lay my burdens and fears at Your feet. You are the greatest Physician. You are my Comforter. You are my Shield. Hold me close to You now, Lord. Work in me a miracle that I may go and help others. Help me be whole. Help me be whole...in Jesus precious, sacred, and holy name I pray...AMEN
In the mean time, because I don't have them meds, my anxiety level has so increased that I am in full blown panic. I am in the parking lot at CVS Pharmacy shaking so hard I was turning into a human milkshake. I'm on my cellphone begging the nurse to get me a Xanax refill cause I absolutely can't go on like this another minute. I finally get the Xanax ok'd and she called it in. I walk inot the pharmacy and tell them I need the Xanax and I need it NOW! I am not going to make it one more minute without something to calm my beyond frazzled nerves.
THAT'S when I found out that the Paxil had been ready since the day before.
Okay, so now that ihave taken 1 Xanax and have made it safely home through the tears and the driving rain, I'm journalling this and then I am going to sit on the couch and turn into a couch potato for the rest of the night.
I am trying to see this as a blessing in my life. That somehow this is a gift from God and that this whole mess will glorify Him. All I know is that without Him in my life, I certainly could NEVER have gone through this. I certainly would have been DEAD a long time ago. This is my testimony to what God can do for us if we let Him.
I love You, Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship You
Oh, my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what You hear
May it be a sweet sweet sound
In Your ear.
Father God, I humble myself before you now. I lay my burdens and fears at Your feet. You are the greatest Physician. You are my Comforter. You are my Shield. Hold me close to You now, Lord. Work in me a miracle that I may go and help others. Help me be whole. Help me be whole...in Jesus precious, sacred, and holy name I pray...AMEN
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
Hugxxxxxxxx