
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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In the end, I know the answer to the this question. Being happy would mean I'm vulnerable, and my vulnerability has resulted in little other than disaster. I know, logically, that it is not forever doomed to be that way. Emotionally, I know nothing.
Really, I'm doing okay right now. Finishing up this semester at school. Depression isn't overtaking my life. I'm afraid to be okay though. I'm so comfortable in the darkness that I don't really know how to stay out of it.
And yet I'm terrified to go back there.
Sorry, this post doesn't mean much. I'm just trying to get something out of my head, or out of my heart.
I don't know which, and I don't know what.
Really, I'm doing okay right now. Finishing up this semester at school. Depression isn't overtaking my life. I'm afraid to be okay though. I'm so comfortable in the darkness that I don't really know how to stay out of it.
And yet I'm terrified to go back there.
Sorry, this post doesn't mean much. I'm just trying to get something out of my head, or out of my heart.
I don't know which, and I don't know what.
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The fighting to get out of the pit seems just too much effort.
I am 56, you are young, please make the effort, get help, lean on us. Don't waste your life. The only thing to be terrified of is fear itself.
It's your decission, please make the right one for you.
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I frittered away so much time instead of doing what I knew needed to be done as far as homework
there was this nagging,and a horrible knot in my stomach, I suffered, but did nothing about it til the last second
The back of my mind was saying, "It's almost over, it's almost done, just do it, just finish..." and I can't seem to do it unless I am in a full panic mode
I stress and worry and make myself miserable over things that really aren't gonna be that bad and are beneficial to me in the long run
did I go on too much?
there have been times where i would have given the world to just feel okay for an hour, let alone a day, or a week, a month...etc
My mind was in a devastatingly dark place last year, and fortunately I've only had two real instances where I was honestly concerned about my well-being this year.
But, I feel like right now, when I'm not distraught, I'm not comfortable.
Part of me wants to go back there because it's what I understand. It's what many have come to understand of me. But I know nothing good will come out of that. I don't have the time to fall down right now. I have to finish classes. I have to get credits transferred so I can graduate on time. There are all these things that need to be done. And I think you raised a great point, what will people expect of me when I actually feel good?
What do I expect of me when I actually feel good? It's so foreign. It seems that which I can most easily accomplish is dragging myself back down into the darkness.
What's wrong with me? I know the answers to all these questions. Logically I most always know what needs to be done to be healthy, but as soon as emotions towards myself come into play I become inept.
Sorry, that was just more ranting.
thanks! :)
i'm on a further path towards sabotage today :-(