I hate the way I deal with my problems. Its either cutting, hyperventilating, chain smoking or taking pills. I want to be one of those people who can sucessfully put on the mask and go through the day acting like nothings wrong. I've always tried my best to keep these things private, but I just cant! And I feel like I'm that downer, that negative person that ruins everyones moods. I dont want to be this person.
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