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why am i here?...im not suitable for this life..

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im 17 years old.. almost 18.. ive been fighting the constant battle of depression ever since i can remember.. but it was just a few years ago or so when i started medicine and therapy.. i have major depression/bipolar/axiety / who knows what else... my life completly sucks.. ive pushed all my friends away, some because probably my negativeness and anger..but the rest ive pushed away because i feel like none of them are the type of people i want to be friends with.. i dont even know if i want friends anymore im so different from everyone else.. i have no friends.. i feel like no one cares for me at all.. i think everyones fake. i dont fit in with anyone at all.. and i dont even think i want to.. i've basically lost my girlfriend we have been off and on for so long now i feel like she doesnt care about me at all.. shes always busy and always doing things while im battling depression everyday.. and it doesnt seem like she cares at all.. and has not much time for me.. it hurts me so much because i love her and thats all i want in my life is her.. i just want someone to love me and really care about me.. i wanna be on another planet with a girl like that i wanna live in our imaginary world and just say.. screw the rest of this world.. but it seems like thats impossible. i just wish i could have someone who understands me and loves me for who iam. im almost 18 and dont have a job.. i have no motivation for anything.. i hate where my life is at right now and i really wish it could change and i could just have someone who loves me and really cares about me. i used to be religious i went to church everysunday
but i gradually stopped going and i lost my faith.. i fear of my future.. i fear dying.. i dont feel safe anymore.. i really want to belive in god but i cant fully bring myself to belive.. i really need help i dont know what to do anymore..
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Are you in therapy? Are you able to talk with your family about this?
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hey.. your the one with the kinky post.. sorry for the comment i left i just got easily offended by that post because im just so deepy depressed and i think this is a very serious discussion =( yea i go to therapy and i talk with my mom about it but i dont go into much detail.
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if i were u id talk 2 ur mum more..........she'd really wanna help n i think ud feel a LOT better gettin some of this off ur chest. do u get on ok with ur therapist ?xx
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i dont feel comfortable talking to her in all these details.. =( and i dont know why yea my therapist is good.. i enjoy talking with him.. but its only once a week and the effect doesnt seem to leave the therapist appointment for too long after
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Sounds Like u just wrote about me.
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well its nice to know im not alone.. with these issues
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what i do with my CPN is i see her on a monday - n then i can phone her on a wed n talk 2 her abowt stuff we spoke abowt on mon once ive had time 2 think abowt it. ask ur therapist to set u goals/ask u questions n then arrange a good time midweek u can call him, cuz then between the phonecall n ur next appointment u can try n figure owt issues 2 xx
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i guess that would be good.. but it would seem awkward.. to like ask him things.. i think he should be the one doing those things because hes the therapist =(
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well yeah - but just be like "i'd feel alot better if we had somethin 2 work 2wards so i actually feel like im helpin myself - could u plz just give me sumthin 2 think abowt after every session so i dont feel so helpless between our sessions." maybe he hasnt done it already cuz he duznt want u 2 feel pressurised - my CPN knows me inside owt n she only recently started doin it. worth a try anyway ?xx
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yea i guess so i got nothing to loose
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when do u next c ur therapist ? would it be worth talkin 2 ur mum a little bit 2night 1st if ur feelin this low ?xx
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i see him wendsday.. and idk what would she do?
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ur mum ? talk things out with u.....she might have some rly good advice. as long as u make it clear that ur gonna tell ur therapist at least some of what ur tellin her, on wed, so she doesnt panic 2nite n worry 2 much.xx
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You're at a transitional phase of life right now. Being that age is hard for everybody, so you aren't alone. I remember it was very hard for me, but you pull through. It's good that you are going to therapy. Stay strong and remember, you can talk/vent to us anytime you need to. We're here for you.
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sounds like me, & i am now a 49 year old granny
still have days where the tears flow
best thing to do is to get on a routine, schedule of some kind
take extra work hours
volunteer to be a peer advisor, listener in your college or university
good luck
things really aren't as bad as they seem,
and yes, i realize that it's hard to believe sometimes
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