I'm married, 30 yrs old, and haven't left my own house for well over 1/2 yr now. I've stopped talking to family, friends, and conversations with my own hubby have dwindled to a few words here or there of actual conversation. I've made doctors appts to get help and cancel them because I can't face having to be in public and I can't talk to one without bawling anyway. i've gained so much weight I hate looking in the mirror. My house is a mess and we're probably going to lose it very very shortly due to nonpayment of the morgage, yet, I can't bring myself to clean it and get it together already. I'm just watching this happen. I've tried asking my mom for help, but, burst into tears when I try to talk on the rare occassion I turn my phone on, so I hang up. Obvious answer would be to turn to my husband..well, he's just as depressed. We've spiraled into this mess and I'm afraid this is it, that it will never end. Of course I know that's not the truth, but, I really don't know where to turn. I stumbled on this website, I don't expect anyone to have the answers for me, but, maybe, if I start talking, I can at least get the courage to walk out my front door and start living again.
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