
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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There is a distinct difference between the way you are treated by someone you are in a relationship with, and the way you are treated by someone who's fucking you. If you're using sex as a weapon to hold people at arms length, then, inevitably, you're going to get used and never experience sex with affection. I don't know how to respond to affection, it's been so long since I actually felt like someone enjoyed my company that I've forgotten how to be gentle, and kind, and I've built up this barrier around myself that no one can penetrate, and I don't even know how to lift it. Behind this barrier, I'm so yearning to be close to someone - but because it feels safer to be alone, I push them away.
So, what is wrong with me? My therapist would tell you that I have depression. That the reason I wake up in the morning and can't face going to a school I LOVE is because of some chemical inbalance in my brain. How can chemicals make me hate myself? I don't understand.
How then, am I to stop feeling so crap? I've written angry poetry. I've been to councelling. I've tried positive thinking. I'm not suicidal, I've watched families suffer the aftermath of suicide, and so know that I could never bring myself to do it. I hate myself, not them.
So, what is wrong with me? My therapist would tell you that I have depression. That the reason I wake up in the morning and can't face going to a school I LOVE is because of some chemical inbalance in my brain. How can chemicals make me hate myself? I don't understand.
How then, am I to stop feeling so crap? I've written angry poetry. I've been to councelling. I've tried positive thinking. I'm not suicidal, I've watched families suffer the aftermath of suicide, and so know that I could never bring myself to do it. I hate myself, not them.

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I understand how you feel! I have trouble with relationships too, but I'm not sure that I understand the chemical imbalance/depression explanation. I've just been screwed so many times and I stopped trusting people and relationships. Can a negative experience cause a chemical balance? Maybe that's it...

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i know that relationships can be tough but with the right person it can be great

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You need to find a way to put down the barriers. You are lonely behind them and you want someone in your life. I personally never had any luck with keeping people at arms length and building walls, ect. I feel, I felt. I can honestly say, I learned something vital in every break up and am happier now in my marraige because of the experiences....good or bad.

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I understand how you feel. I'm working through the same problems.
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