I'm just not sure how much longer I can go on like this. I am hoping w/ changing afew of the Medication(s) I won't be so Severely Depressed & Suicidal. I talked to my Doctor today, we changed some of the Meds & then he also shared that he "understood" what I was going thru ...as has been thru that himself. I haven't been able to work since Aug 1rst, moved back to Oregon, lost my Ford Explorer so Bus is only means of transportation. My youngest Daughter said I was her Children's Grandma but that was as far as our relationship was/would ever go. How hard she had to pretend all these yrs she cared. She sure cared tho when the kids needed something -or- the next baby came along, Now...waiting past 6 mo for Med, SSI, Sec-8 etc...have to stay w/ someone. Hope I can get into my own place SOON, Isolation is fine w/ me & the sooner the better, My Daughter here...she has a free Babysitter.
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