Hi. I'm posting in this category because I'm not quite sure about it. I have been depressed for about 7 years. I have been diagnosed and treated. At first, meds seemed to work. I also had great health anxiety and fears. But about now, things aren't as bad in my life. I finished college, even if I'm in my thirties. I am now in my first real relationship. I was an achiever through all my school life, and at a work I had. But somehow, things seems wrong. I always think I'm not good enough. And no matter what I do, I can never fulfill the requirements that my mind force upon me. That hinders my ability to enjoy thinks, from playing pool, or a videogame, to try something new and socialize. I also think too much about the future: about what will I do, if I should do something or not, if it would worth it. At this moment, I'm afraid if my character can make my boyfriend to leave me. Also, as I said before, nothing I can do is good enough. My family is supportive, I'm with a good doctor lately (at least I think so, as his treatment reduced the obsessive thoughts related to health), but somehow I can't seem to enjoy life. There is always "something" something that keeps me from living. I am also aware that life is not a continous stream of joy...of course there's always problems. Though, I am always crushed upon this thoughts and feelings. I hope all of you can improve your lifes, and I also hope you can bring some light to my journey.
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