so its 2009 and once again i'm going to be another year older, another year that i'm all alone and lonely... big 26 this september and i just know i will be alone, the big number 1 , what a lonely place to be ... nobody and nothing..... when does it get easier to look at all the couples in the parks and shopping malls and not envy them for the love they have found ? when does it get easier to walk by two and be able to say i don't need that instead of sighing and saying why can't i have that? why am i the person without someone, makes me think there is something wrong with me, maybe i'm too ugly? not smart enough, not enough makeup? my hair not poofy enough? i haven't wished on enough stars? or wait my favorite, i'm still young and there is someone for me, u know at some point u just stop beilieving these things and u think i will be alone forever and its cause there is nobody for me- i truly believe this and i feel trapped in a lonely world, so wanna know, when will this be easier or get easier? and what is wrong with me? emotionally and physically that i'm a lone and lonely?
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