when i wanted to kill myself for the first time and i sat begging God to save me.

After I attempted suicide! The doctor told me I had clinical depression and it clicked. I must've been blind! Talking is always better than bottling it inside. x

I knew the 1st time when I couldnt eat, sleep, concentrate and cried at everything you can imagine.

i knew when i started screaming at my kids for no reason, when they would rather spend time in their bedrooms rather than downstairs with me. when i cried buckets and didnt know why..... i sought help from the doctor and now 2 months later im a changed person. the kids spend time with me now, i dont scream at them anymore..... i should have got help sooner.

when I was told I had clinical depression when I was 23. I always considered myself a horrible monster who was trying to shirk my duties & responsibilities by not just pulling myself up by the boot straps.

After I attempted suicide for the first time. Thinking about it all of the time,ect. I would say that you need to talk to a doc about how you are feeling.

i hid on the computer any chance i could get. i was irritable and couldn't deal with anyone or with life. i was nauseaus and lost 50 lbs in a month and a half. i was sleeping all the time. i was jittery. dang, i thought i was pregnant, not depressed - which depressed me further - until i wanted to end it all.

had it off and on since i was 13. Yeah it can do that it is best to try not to think of when or why but rather what to do about it and how to do it. I find looking back at the past often makes me even more depressed. Talking is always good and never loose hope.

I always agreed with the doctors as far as taking a/d, but it was generally a medical doctor. I have had mild uni depression all my life, or since the age of 17. But, the clinical generally came and went in spurts, but this time, it has just stuck like glue for about a year. I guess when I had to realize that I didn't want to live anymore. Sometimes I wish all my medical problems would just kill me and let me get it over with. Ever read that poem, Hero Dying Young, it's about quiting while you ahead, sometimes I wish I would have died a few years ago, when I still had a life to lose, instead of hanging around waiting for SOMETHING......not even sure what it is anymore.

Oh, I am not suicidal today, I would not do that to my child or grandchild, but sometimes I think it would be in everyones best interest if I did. Or, if I had died before I got to sick to be of any use to anyone. I've accepted that I have a chronic condition, it just sometimes I don't feel very useful. And, it passes, just for today.

Just after i had my son, didnt want to be anywhere near him, i hated myself, didnt get dressed, showered anything for a week, But i dont think i really accepted it until i over dosed. My midwife whom im still in contact with now says she knew i was depressed while i was pregnnt, i just thought it ws hormones and the fact that at the time i didnt want the baby. I love him dearly now though.

I knew something was wrong when I was sleeping close to 15 hours a day for several weeks, I lost interest in performing well in a great job (I got fired eventually), I stopped talking to most everyone- it wasnt like me to avoid anyone.

Probably when i was about 15 I just left everything and everyone alone and would just sit alone and cry all the time. It took for me to actually attempt suicide and change doctors to get help cos they said I was just going through teen blues at the time

I have more issue with OCD. Unfortunately it is a giant circle. OCD-DEPRESSION-ANXIETY-OCD
My key that I needed help was last summer I climed out on my roof in the middle of a rain storm with only pajama bottoms on to check my gutters. I could have gotten hurt, and not only that, but I live in town. I went to the Pychiatrist shortly there after.

very 1st time was when i tried suicide at 17. I figgered it was just due to a breakup w my 1st bf.
Guess I really knew was when i walked outta work cuz the boss asked me to do something & i didnt think i should have to do it. After that i started having anxiety attacks during bowling. I bowled for 25 yrs 175 ave. That was bout 10-12 yrs ago. Havent bowled sense.

i realized i was depressed whn i didnt want to do the actvities i liked to do anymore and i just wanted to sit around