i feel the same way a lot of the time HUG

That would be the depression bug. Nasty thing he is. I have been in your shoes. Still am from time to time. Your not ugly but a very good looking guy but again thats the depression bug. You need to stand up kick him in the head and say leave me the F alone depression bug :)

Are you doing anything to help control your depression ie medication or therapy?

Someone who doesn't love you is about them. There is no need to take on a problem that belongs to someone else.

Some people love me, some don't. It means nothing about me, but rather its a commentary on their ability to express and feel.

i like that osteoron ..i need to realize that myself

There's nothing wrong with you, it's depression. It gets the best of us but hopefully sooner rather than later, it'll pass.

P.S. you're never alone here.x

dakotasmama: i wish i could tell the bug to leave me the F alone ... i just dont know how to pick myself up afterwards ... as for control ... not at the moment ... i didnt get on with my councellor and the meds i was on actually pushed me from suicidal thoughts to attempted suicide ... i'm not sure what else i can do to be honest ... but i am so lost and so alone!

clarad: thanks ... im starting to realise im not alone on here ... and the advice i will get is helpfull ... but in the past whenever people have "helped" they have ended up turning round on them and making me worse off!

god knows when i started feeling this way ... possibly when i was 16-17 (6-7 years ago) ... and last summer i thought i had it under control and things were going ok ... but this year everything is back with a vengeance and i feel worse than i ever remember feeling before!

Im there with you Crash feeling the same way.. Hold on and try new meds. I hope things get better for you.

magicalgirl ... thanks its nicel to know im not alone ... and thanks for the hug!

What are you triggers?

to be honest i have no idea what triggers it! i wish i did ... then i may be able to help myself!?!?

Do you journal. I know this sounds corny but if you can look back and see what situations and what not let or make you feel bad then you can start to avoid them.

What else do you do? Do you work? Do you enjoy it? What are your hobbies and favorite past times?

youre welcome :)

i dont feel able to write anything about my life ... i wouldnt know where to start ... much as i dont feel able to talk to anyone i know ... as for work i work for my parents company which means i have to put a brave face on to hide everything from my colleagues and family at once ... and at the minute no i dont enjoy it hugely ... but i hope to one day take over the business (if i am ever worthy)

as for hobbies i dont have the energy for anything ... i just find excuses not to do anything and end up sitting on my backside feeling sorry for myself!!!