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So I am sitting here waiting for my ativan to kick in ............... and I am so stressed out that ... I was thinking ..... Do you get a warning before you snap ??????
Seriously .... How much stress can one person take before they go fucking postal ????
I used to worry about being suicidal.... more lately I worry about being homicidal ...
There was a movie out a few years back when the guy snapped and got out of his car and just lost it ...... it scares the piss out of me because there are days when I think ... I am sooooo damn mad ...... Mad at the unfairness of life, mad at working so hard to have it all lost because the world is a fucked up place and honest work does not count for shit anymore .....
mad because everyone seems like they are out to get me .....
made because I cant find a way out of the trap I am in ..... There is no fucking rainbows or sliver fucking linings ... all lies ..... only the users and abusers get ahead
I was so mad at work today that I actually slammed my head on my desk ... right in front of asshole boss .......
Why they fuck shopuld I bust my ass for a company that is slowly pulling the life support plugs off me ... after makeing me go cold turky on the morphine ........
I evny the people that got dates to be layed off ,,,,, they know thier fate ,,, I am left with the pain of knowing my day will come but not have the notice they have ,,,,,, Why am I there to suffer ???? and for what ????
Its like cleaning a shithole out while others are still crapping in that damn hole ... whats the fucking POINT
So do any of you know when the stress band breaks and someone actaully losses it ??? I need to know if I have any warnings ..... or should I tell people I love to stay the fuck away from me I close to the edge ????
PS ATALOSS ,,,,,, I am not going to go postal at work ..... I might tell a few choice people to FUCK OFF THO
Seriously .... How much stress can one person take before they go fucking postal ????
I used to worry about being suicidal.... more lately I worry about being homicidal ...
There was a movie out a few years back when the guy snapped and got out of his car and just lost it ...... it scares the piss out of me because there are days when I think ... I am sooooo damn mad ...... Mad at the unfairness of life, mad at working so hard to have it all lost because the world is a fucked up place and honest work does not count for shit anymore .....
mad because everyone seems like they are out to get me .....
made because I cant find a way out of the trap I am in ..... There is no fucking rainbows or sliver fucking linings ... all lies ..... only the users and abusers get ahead
I was so mad at work today that I actually slammed my head on my desk ... right in front of asshole boss .......
Why they fuck shopuld I bust my ass for a company that is slowly pulling the life support plugs off me ... after makeing me go cold turky on the morphine ........
I evny the people that got dates to be layed off ,,,,, they know thier fate ,,, I am left with the pain of knowing my day will come but not have the notice they have ,,,,,, Why am I there to suffer ???? and for what ????
Its like cleaning a shithole out while others are still crapping in that damn hole ... whats the fucking POINT
So do any of you know when the stress band breaks and someone actaully losses it ??? I need to know if I have any warnings ..... or should I tell people I love to stay the fuck away from me I close to the edge ????
PS ATALOSS ,,,,,, I am not going to go postal at work ..... I might tell a few choice people to FUCK OFF THO
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***hugs gently***
But I will say I listened to a program on the radio the other day about how the stress of being the one NOT laid off is worse these days because you are constantly fearing you will be next. Also because as people leave the work load just gets heavier and heavier.
***HUGS***
Maybe there is warning for me, but because I never let myself get completely nuts, I don't see it that way.
Seriously hun you really do need a chill pill! You've really have been under too much stress.
Anyway you can get away for yourself even for just a couple of hours? I go to the show by myself when I am homicidal:) Take care and hang in there.
Hang in there Dewy...I know your venting and that's good. Just look them in the eye and SPIT!! JUST KIDDING!!!! I don't want you to lose what income you may have coming in. :~)) Like boo said "..nice long deep breaths" plus keep breathing :~) BIG HUGS SISTER, Hang in there. I'm with you.
IDK how to answer your question sweety. When I finally snapped the last time, I swallowed a bunch of pills. Do NOT do this...just sayin'....
I wish I could do something to help you. I feel so bad. I know it's so hard to be in such a spot.
{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} & much love to you hon
DO NOT do it honey....you will make it!!!