ive been suffering from depression for a couple of years now ive been throguh so many medications but yet they dont work or i get bad side affects. ive gotten to the point were i dont leave home and ive pushed every1 close to me away because they couldnt understand how im feeling so lownly and like no1 is gunna wanna love and care for a stupid fat ugly dumb person like me. ive tried counsilling but i find it way to hard 2 open up to them or evern find it hard 2 leave home i start to panci that every1 is watching me and laughing behind my back. so ive now chosen not to go out anymore.. im even having problems with my new doctour as my old one went on meternity leave and my new doctour seems to think im fine and that im just a normal teenage gurl witch makes me start to think am i just being crazy. im starting to feel suicidal and that im crazy in the head im calling out for sum1 to please help im sick of being alone..
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