I don't know why I have to keep obsessing about my home life....well here it goes anyway. I've been a part of my God children's life for 16years which for 2 of them it's all of their lives and then some (it's a total of 4). Well since they've gotten older there has been a lot of disrespect. My roommates oldest daughter just turned 16 and she basically told me last year that she didn't like me, well in her words she don't like me that much, and only wants her mom to be the one to tell her what to do, but get this it's all good when she wants me to buy her something. And not to put down my friend(her Mom) but I've singled handedly bought literally everything they own, down to the undergarments, yesssss!!!! When she told me that it broke my heart. I know she's at that age but still it hurts like hell. She stills my clothes and wears them, she can't even speak to me when I walk thru the door from work. So sometimes I'll go in thru the basement, well until my Mom told me that I better stop doing that. I'm so upset with her mother for allowing this to happen, I feel like she needs to take a more active role in her daughters life and that may be part of the problem why she resents me b/c I'm doing things that her mother should be doing. My youngest God Daugher is an angel, she's 9 and I'm working really hard to keep her on the straight and narrow. The reason why I haven't moved out is purely selfless... I'm totally here for their benefit. Their Mom will never be able to afford this house by herself. Their life style will totally change, and she's even told her kids that, and they still don't appreciate that. I feel used by everybody but I also allow myself to be used, so why do I do that??? I guess I hate myself that much that I think I deserve it. I don't know why I care so much for people that obviously don't feel the same way about me. It's like I need acceptance from them. And me having a miscarriage 2weeks ago don't help the grieving process at all. Anybody out there that can rescue me from myself??????
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