i have been struggling with depression my whole life long, but it seems like after i moved away to college, it has been up and down way more than it ever was. i feel like i am sinking, and i shouldnt. i should be happy right now. i have the best boyfriend ever who loves me more than i ever thought that someone could. my school is going really well, andi just became an aunt by the sister i live with. i just dont understand...all these things make me happy, but i am just so scared and down when i am alone, that my boyfriend even tells me that he is scared that he is gonna find my lifeless body one day when he gets home. i want to be happy in the worst way, but i am so scared that everything is going to fall apart....what can i do?
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