My medical condition causes me to age too fast. I am afraid it is snowballing now. I lost one of my pain meds. It is the most effective one. Office politics without regard for my personal circumstance requires me to wait until tomorrow to see a doc for more pain med. My body HURTS! The hairs on my head dont hurt. I am amidst an attack of my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. It is bad this time. Effects are being cold, maimed intestine-- way too much discomfort, bad dreams & sweat, and restless sleep. Covering up to get warm will leave me very hot and sweaty. The government leaders have made Medicare able to effectively block me from going inpatient at a hospital. I cannot tell anyone that I am suicidal now because that is what they have to do for a psyche wardinpatient with a deductible of $1,000. I am so hoping my two day sleep is over with by tomorrow to get more pain med. I hope I am still here even. I think I will be because suicide now is only ideation.
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