Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Watching my daughter play outside with her best friend. Watching the silly game of rudolph and santa. Listening to her laugh. So, happy and carefree,she doesn't even suspect that her daddy sometimes hurts so bad inside.
But watching through the window at her shouting and running without a care in the world I am reminded of why I am doing this. So, I can give her the world she thinks exist. Not the one that does in reality. Last night I was told once again, that I am the greatest daddy in the world. I am doing all that I can to make sure that I stay that to her.
She's the reason I don't commit suicide no matter how hard my life gets, because I know she doesn't deserve to go through that pain. She wouldn't see it as a depressed person who couldn't take it anymore, she would just know that she lost the greatest daddy in the world.
In her world I am the daddy who jokes, makes her laugh,plays with her, thinks I'm smart, listens to her and keeps her safe. So, if ending things isn't an answer, that means I have to get better so I can still be the greatest daddy in the world, so i can still smile and be watching through the window.
But watching through the window at her shouting and running without a care in the world I am reminded of why I am doing this. So, I can give her the world she thinks exist. Not the one that does in reality. Last night I was told once again, that I am the greatest daddy in the world. I am doing all that I can to make sure that I stay that to her.
She's the reason I don't commit suicide no matter how hard my life gets, because I know she doesn't deserve to go through that pain. She wouldn't see it as a depressed person who couldn't take it anymore, she would just know that she lost the greatest daddy in the world.
In her world I am the daddy who jokes, makes her laugh,plays with her, thinks I'm smart, listens to her and keeps her safe. So, if ending things isn't an answer, that means I have to get better so I can still be the greatest daddy in the world, so i can still smile and be watching through the window.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
my son too is the reason i push on, to live.
my son saves my life often, and he doesn't even know it.
((((HUGE HUGS)))))