I want the pain to end so bad. I want all the flashbacks to stop, I want the hurt to stop, I still hurt, I cant stop crying, if I am not crying on the outside, I am sure as hell crying on the inside. I kept it to myself for almost a week, now it is all coming out, and im beggin for it to end. I dont want to do this. I dont want to hurt, I want the pain to end. I need someone to talk to, but no one seems to want to, unless they are forcing me to go to the police, I cant go to the police. I am too hurt, too scared, I wont leave the house alone, I want this pain to just die. I dont want to trigger anyone with this post, and if I do, it is just another reason why I need to die. I need to escape this pain, I want it to all go away, I hurt so bad. Im hurt, I want it to go away, I dont think I deserve this pain for this long, even though it is my fault im hurting like this, I was stupid! I am so hurt, and confused! fk fk fk!!!! I just want this pain to end, and the only way it will end is if I die. I want this pain to end....
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