i want the pain to stop. every moment i walk every moment icry i feel dead. i feel the only reason im alive is because my heart is beating. this feeling is tangible and its strangling me. i just want it to end! i don't care how, and im tempted to cut myself really bad! and im fighting.... because our Lord would not like it. please.... stop. i want to stop. this is my farewell.
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