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Wanna die (may be triggering)

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i have been so depressed lately, and today i was hyper and depressed (mixed episode) and the hyperness just makes the depression worse because it makes those negative thoughts run faster through your head, it like racing negative thoughts, terrible. i want to just end it, i'm just so tired of this. i'm tired of dealing with it, i've been going in and out of depression for 10 years now and nothing i do to help myself ever works, it always blows up in my face. i don't care about anything right now, i'm already on a sebaticle from work and no one knows it, i just go to the library or the mall when i'm supposed to be at work and i just wander aimlessly around not looking at anything in particular, just staring into space. i don't think this is ever going to end, unless i do it myself, but i haven't made up my mind yet, i've already somewhat tried twice, i cut both of my wrists, down the main vein, but i just couldn't get it deep enough, so if my next attempt happens, it will be with sleeping pills. i just don't know what to do anymore, it seems like the only option.
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:(
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*hugs* aw, Casey, stay strong
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alwaysss ere the ellzie clause or super ellzie the man whos give flyby hugs is always ere
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Only one option eh? well how many others have you tried? Start writing down the options you nhave put as much effort into as taking your own life and then see how many others you haven't tried yet. It is NOT the only option, there are so many more waiting for you to find them to make you well again {{hugs}}
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http://health.discovery.com/encyclopedias/illnesses.html?article=3335&page=1

You may have to cut and paste the link.. but this may be what you have in store for you if you swallow pills...
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that happened to me, thing is I was so out of it because of my OD all I remember was the nurse saying, "you can't fight it hunny" and then waking up a day and a half later on 24 hour watch, the weird thing is whenever I think about it my stomach feels cold and sick even though I don't really remember it happening
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I'vebeen in the ER amny times and watched... and I'll be money that not very many ever tried pills again
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Casey, you still there??
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Been there with the pills...I won't go into details unless you need me to (PM me anytime k?)...but everyone who said it is right...pills are not the answer (or any other method). This feeling WILL pass...Be gentle on yourself.
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What exactly have you tried to help you out of this. The possibilities are endless of how you can pull out of this nightmare. There is always a solution. Something you haven't tried. Keep thinking- you've hung on for 10 years so keep going?
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i'm still here, just thinking things through. i've tried so many things to try to fix my life, i tired bettering myself with school, pursuing my dreams, whic hare no longer my dreams after failing at them so many times, i'm in counseling, been doing that gig for 8 years now, i've been on different kinds of meds for almost the same amount of time and i very rarely miss a dose, i see my psychiatrist once a month, i've tried to talk to my friends and family but they just don't seem to understand. i've tried writing everything down, i've tried changing jobs, i've been hospitalized 7 times, and there's a billion other things that i just can't think of right now. but i have tried a lot, and after 10 years i just can't think of any better solutions for the pain, i'm just so tired of everything.
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