I don't know why but I feel so alone all the time. I have a great husband and a 5 month old son but I always feel alone. My husband and I are living with my mother who use to abuse me in the past and now that I have my son I feel like I have been taken back to being a child again. I just don't want to become the mother that my mother was to me. I look at my son and I am so afraid that someday I might loose my cool. I am getting help for this but How can I feel so alone in a house full of people? I just wish that I could come back to the state of mind of a 25 year old and not when I was 16.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...