Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
today i found a little help from a stranger...
he took me to the hospital and helped me get some help..
monday i have to set up an appointment with a doctor on the west side that will get me on anti-depressants and he's going to take me to make sure i go.. plus he is in a support group and will get me involved with that tuesday..
he's a stranger to me. but he is part of the family my brother married into today.. i met him at the wedding and we went from the wedding to the hospital to get me admitted.. they released me only because i wasn't going to hurt myself tonight.. but a social worker for mental heath says i finally qualify for assistance and set me up with some numbers to call..
no i didn't create a scene at the wedding.. my brother told him my story a while back and he pulled me off to the side and offered me a life line.. he understood i am not lazy.. that i really wanted help.. but two things held me back that was out of my control... i just have a hard time going places by myself.. last year i travelled 400miles a day or more alone in a 40ton truck. i just wanted to run it off the road =( alone i can't trust myself.. because of that i have a hard time keeping a job.. i self destruct... i may never hurt another soul.. but mine does not matter to me. i can't explain it.. i just don't care about myself.. so i am always dead broke and afraid to drive any where alone.
my son is what keeps me fighting to stay alive. he is my only reason for living.. so when this guy said he'd take me to where i needed to go, i about cried right there... i had given up hope.. one thing nobody i know ever has is time to help me.. thats about the best gift anybody has ever given me! i never wanted money or anything material.. just someone to give me time..
he took me to the hospital and helped me get some help..
monday i have to set up an appointment with a doctor on the west side that will get me on anti-depressants and he's going to take me to make sure i go.. plus he is in a support group and will get me involved with that tuesday..
he's a stranger to me. but he is part of the family my brother married into today.. i met him at the wedding and we went from the wedding to the hospital to get me admitted.. they released me only because i wasn't going to hurt myself tonight.. but a social worker for mental heath says i finally qualify for assistance and set me up with some numbers to call..
no i didn't create a scene at the wedding.. my brother told him my story a while back and he pulled me off to the side and offered me a life line.. he understood i am not lazy.. that i really wanted help.. but two things held me back that was out of my control... i just have a hard time going places by myself.. last year i travelled 400miles a day or more alone in a 40ton truck. i just wanted to run it off the road =( alone i can't trust myself.. because of that i have a hard time keeping a job.. i self destruct... i may never hurt another soul.. but mine does not matter to me. i can't explain it.. i just don't care about myself.. so i am always dead broke and afraid to drive any where alone.
my son is what keeps me fighting to stay alive. he is my only reason for living.. so when this guy said he'd take me to where i needed to go, i about cried right there... i had given up hope.. one thing nobody i know ever has is time to help me.. thats about the best gift anybody has ever given me! i never wanted money or anything material.. just someone to give me time..
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Speaking as a survivor of suicide - yes - you would shatter your son's world... and many others. Do whatever it takes to keep yourself from hurting yourself. You are a precious human being and you deserved every bit of kindness and help you got, and more. Keep up the trying, hang on to hope. Glad to have you here on DS, there is a lot of support to be had here.