It seems like every day, as the day wears on, I feel better. Every morning though is hell, I wake up with such horrible anxiety and depression, I just feel like dying. I'm so tired of having to pick myself up so much in the morning, I can't stop the negative thoughts coming in. I don't know if it's just waking up alone, but I miss my ex so much in the morning, and am so tempted to call her. Right now I want to talk to her so bad, but I know she will just be so cold to me. This hurts so damn bad right now, I feel like I"m never going to have a good morning again.
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