I'm feeling a bit better today. Still up and down a bit. Every now and then I feel the depression anchor around my neck trying to pull me down but I have managed most of the day to stave off the depression. The last few days were not good days for me. And ya know, I see people around me who are handicapped, or have had some really horrible things happen to them and they stand tall and still smile. And I feel guilty for the depression that I have. Like I have no right to be depressed given I have a good wife, a good marriage, 3 good kids, good job, good pay, decent house, good live overall. So what do I have to be depressed? Some people have it far worse then I. So I feel guilty for being depressed and I'm depressed from feeling guilty. UGH!
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