well i usually go to the epilepsy site but everything that i bitch about sounds more and more like i am just in a depression funk. i keep writing that my medicine is giving me awful side effects like, wanting to sleep all the time, being a bitch all the time, having no patienc for anyone and just chronically complaining. maybe this is just me i have been on antidepressants before but haven't fealt the need for them in years but now whether it is my meds or not it sure sads like depression and it feels like shit. for the past week for some reason everytime i get mad or sad or whatever i seem to just go raid the fridge and then feel 100 times worse for that, i wish i could be like most people and when depressed lose my appetite, and just sit there and get pissed about that too. i was reading in the discussion that someone seems to stay positive and i just can't seem to get to that point. every day i tell myself that the next day i won't complain, i won't be so mean,etc. i even try yo convince myself that tomorrow i will go for a walk or actually enjoy my kids and play with them more but for some reason i wake up to the excact same day i had before, the only thing that i can think positive about is atleast now i leave the house because about a year ago i didn't. i know someone might read this and think how can she think that is all she can think positive about she has 2 kids and a loving husband, i guess it sounds selfish and i love them all very very much and appreciate them and they make me very happy aswell, but for some reason i can never be happy with me or my life
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