i hate dealign with this... in a house of six people, im constantly lonely. one of them is even in love with me, though quickly getting over it because i dont like him back that way. i hate this life, i hate how i am, and i cant stand being alone all the time. it feels like there's this circle around me, and outside of that circle is where everyone who is physically around me stands. there's noone in the inner circle, the one im inside of. i look around, and everyone else is busy living their lives, and im stuck in this horrible rut, feellinglonely and depressed, and because none notices that i feel this way, or cares, it becomes an all consuming spiral. i ahte it, and though i try to keep myself from going back to where i was when i was cutting, but it was such a release... i dont even know why. *sigh* i have to go now, my room mate wants the computer back. i just really need help right now. someone, or something...anything.
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