I used to loathe being alone. Now, I can appreciate it and even enjoy it. Poverty, oh well, most of the world lives in poverty. As for unemployment, thinking is a great interference to getting a job and doing well at it.

Guess Ive just been sucked into materialist capitalism - and I must learn to appreciate my own company more!

Kinga, I don't have any great advice about how to get out fo the moods you describe.
I can tell you that you put into words exactly how I have found myself at different times in my life. It sounds like you may struggle with depression. Different people deal with depression in different ways and no one way works for everyone. Counseling, medication, self-help has worked for any number of people. I have used all of them at one point or another.
Talking about it helps some as well. Even though I don't have a great answer for you, I do have an understanding ear if you'd like to use it :)

Hello Kinga, i'm sorry you feel like that! i may not have a lot of wonderful insight to what you are going through, but i do know that God never puts anything in our life that we can't handle. Remember, Philippians 4:13 I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me!

Thank you to everyone for their advice. I do feel better now actually. love Kinga x

The problem is we are taught what we should aim for and that not getting or being it means failure. But happiness or at least contentment. You are worthwhile wanted and important. Also as I always say when ppl say hows things I say Weeell as the man said as he fell off the cliff half way down so far so good. Live the now tomorrow is a loooong way off.