I want so bad to pull myself out of the depression I'm feeling today. I feel so sad and lonely. I'm trying to focus on the good I did yesterday by helping volunteer in the search for a missing 18 year girl here in Overland Park, Kansas. I felt so good about myself last night but today is a different story. I try to look at what others are going through, the parents of the missing girl for example, but I just can't. When I get down like this I think of my ex-boyfriend who I've been broken up with for 1 year but still think about him constantly and miss him. It's ridiculous. I hate feeling like this.
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