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I'm lame and reposting this on the depression community page, too. I just really need some reassurance.
okay well i definitely just had a splurge moment and i'm writing in here trying to convice myself I won't be fat in the morning. Because, logically, I know that I won't. But the food addicted, body-conscious, eating disorder side of me is whispering in my ear "you messed up big time, you're going to regret this so bad tommorrow."
I think what scares me most is that it really wasn't THAT bad of a binge. Half an order of a chinese takeout dinner (split with my roommate), half a chocolate chip milkshake, and a little popcorn. i mean, that's not really a splurge just a very high calorie, high fat meal thaat I wouldnt normally eat. I know I sound ridiculous but I can't help but feel awful inside.
It's okay. It's okay.
okay well i definitely just had a splurge moment and i'm writing in here trying to convice myself I won't be fat in the morning. Because, logically, I know that I won't. But the food addicted, body-conscious, eating disorder side of me is whispering in my ear "you messed up big time, you're going to regret this so bad tommorrow."
I think what scares me most is that it really wasn't THAT bad of a binge. Half an order of a chinese takeout dinner (split with my roommate), half a chocolate chip milkshake, and a little popcorn. i mean, that's not really a splurge just a very high calorie, high fat meal thaat I wouldnt normally eat. I know I sound ridiculous but I can't help but feel awful inside.
It's okay. It's okay.
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I think it's ok. your making me hungry lol
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I wouldn't consider that a binge. Your okay. It's a little high calorie but you split the dinner and the shake and there's nothing wrong with having some popcorn. Your okay. Why do you feel awful about it?
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thats the eating problems coming out i guess. thats the worst part, I know that it isnt really a binge its just i can't not feel guilty about unhealthy food. it really is becoming a problem. my roommates arent helping either because i swear they eat like birds.
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Nothing wrong with that. It's quite normal to eat things we shouldn't sometimes. Eating healthy tomorrow will erase any bad feelings you have. It usually does for me, but I don't have an ED. Be easy on yourself. Really doesn't sound like you went too overboard.
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yeah, i agree -go easy on yourself. you don't deserve to beat yourself up for eating something not that healthy. yeah, that would make it tough if your roommates hardly eat.
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