ok those i love on here. this is the truth about me. i am wounded and full of crap. right now i hate two people that have killed me inside. i wish them both to die. i pray each morning on the way to work that this hatred will go away..... i am baring my soul here. let this post fall by the wayside. i don't care. it is how i feel. for the first time in all of my life i have wanted to kill someone... i am better now and am not there anymore. the hatred still remains... i can't take much more of this ..!!!!!! i trigger this post because i have the love of God somewhere in my heart. i hope he will help me... i beg everyday that if i get past this. i will be a better person. i WILL....... i am in the midst of the worst struggle of my life. hatred for two human beings....... i can't stand to be in this situation... i am trying to let it go... don't tell me to let it go.... i am killing myself to get this poison out of my life...... just a song that no1 will listen to. however when i listen to it, i feel i have a chance to get past all this horrendous pain. xxxx
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