My mom was here this last weekend again, and from about a few days before she came i started having reoccuring nightmares, but they weren't like before. They were of different abuse that i went through as a child, but in the nightmares i was an adult! It has caused me to not sleep during the night, even if i took a sleeping pill. When it would wake me up in the middle of the night, i would attempt to get back to sleep but would fail. So i ended up getting out of bed, going to the couch and watching something really boring on tv hoping that would make me fall asleep, but it didn't work. It was like i was paranoid to sleep! Since about last tuesday i started having my nightmares and i would get maybe about 1/2hr-1 hr of sleep every night for the last week. I'm so tired, so worn out...What was really pathetic was trying to pretend that everything was fine when they were here.
I guess what i'm asking you all is does anyone have any suggestions that i could try to help me get back to sleep after i wake up in the middle of the night?
It never seems to fail when i see my mom that it seems to increase my suicide attempts, just like the one attempt the other day!