i have to be everything to everyone. everyone i know depends on me for everyting. i made all the mistakes you can imagine. ive ruined everthing ive touched. everytime someone trusts me i let them down. my entire life is like studing for a test every day and still failing. everything is broken. i cant fix it all anymore. my mind is broken. im just so tired. as long as i can remember ive been angry at nothing. i smile. i cant stand groups of people. im the life of the party. i get sick when im forced into general conversation forcing myself to act interested and concerned. thats what your supposed to do right. its too much to deal with now. and now that ive created this image i cant talk to anyone. i think i need a hospital but im in the middle of a divorce and i have a son. if i get help it will give her what she needs to take him from me. i can always make it stop. why wont it stop. i cant do this theres too much
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