Feeling so low today. Didn't even bother to get dressed. Dreary and rainy here in Michigan and that is exactly how I feel. My mother's day was just sad. I went out and bought my own gifts, wrapped them and even bought myself a card. I thought it would be fun but it only made me more sad. I love my boys but in this regard they are just like their dad. He's never so much as bought me a birthday or christmas gift that they've seen. Spending a lot of time crying and searching for new jobs and apartments in the classifieds so I can at least dream of getting away from the loneliness and sadness. I really hate what my life has become.
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