I miss my daughters smell, her touch, her voice. I miss feeding her and holding her. I miss checking on her at night. I miss seeing her brothers love her. |I miss my baby and I am scared I won't see her again.

*hugs* I am sorry you are hurting... I wish I had words to comfort you... if it doesn't bother you, I will prayer for her return.

Sorry to hear you are missing your kids, I hope the court case goes well for you. Are you allowed to send your daughter pictures or letters so that she can still see who you are?

if you are doing what you have been instructed to do, I believe you will have every chance to get your daughter back. I know your anxiety must feel overwhelming

There's a documentary now on the National Geographic channel "in the womb". A child learns it's mother's voice in utero. It never forgets.

It sounds like there is a way to work towards reuniting with your child. Stay focused on what you can do to make it happen.

I can't imagine what you are going through, but have faith that you will get to see her again and you will get better. Strive for it each and every day. Good luck with court on Monday. Do you journal? Journaling helps alot. What about a nice hot bath? That will sometimes calm me down. **hugs**

what if i fail again. what if i cannot beat the depression in time enough?

but that's not your fault, why would they not give her back? If you're in therapy and doing what the court ordered then surely they'd consider that in your favor

What a beautiful smile you have! I want you to think about the Bob Marley tune" Don't worry, about today, cause every little thing is gonna be alright..." I've been singing it to myself all day. I know this is serious but if you can learn to love yourself more then your daughter and everyone else will know. I am with you always, in my heart:)

i know its not the same thing atal...
but ive been in foster care. it was different for me cuz i was older and my mum died - but there was still NO WAY my foster mum was ever gonna replace her. and ive lived in 2 foster homes - with younger kids who have lived there their whole lives, or a lot of their lives. the do NOT forget their real parents ever. and they ALWAYS love their real parents best, and they always wanna be with them, well in my experience. i know shes just a baby - but she WONT forget u. fingers crossed court goes well. xxx

too cool is right, I had friends who grew up in foster care, they never forgot their parents.

I agree, that is a beautiful smile. Just keep grinning at the judge.

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believe in your heart that you can get your child back. i hurt for you since i saw my sister go through this same thing. keep your mind alert and positive. we are here for you.

I lost my kids to the State temporarily, once a long time ago. You have to do everything that is asked of you. Even if you have to put on that face and make it look like you are getting more out of what they are saying.
You sometimes have to put on an act for these idiots. You do everything you can then you tell the judge you DID everything that was asked of you. Don't look at the future what ifs...if they need a future plan then give them that of how you will stay on meds...and stay in therapy...and you will reach out to family and friends...and will not look to poor choice type behaviors to cope. Sugar coat it. I know that sounds like shitty advice, but that is how the system works.
I had a HORRIBLE cps worker and she told me she had no intention of giving my kids back...because I was mental and a single mom...the judge chewed her ass right there in court and told her she was a shame to her profession. It took me awhile to beat them, but I did and so can you!!