your depressed,that is what's wrong. Welcome to the club, your in pretty good company. I took one of those personality test, the job part said I would make a writer of rap musci, or, I could go play the sax, trumpet or drums. Hehe, I don't know the first note on any of them.

Okay this is gonna sound weird but.. It seems the only rush or good feeling I had from life was when I was involved in crime. Not violent or even theft but drugs etc btw I dont use any drugs and rarely drink anymore as well..

I gave up that life years ago and never been the same since.

There's lots of things that affect how we feel and navigate through life....your personality, your temperament, your IQ, (which has nothing to do with how well you do in school, a lot of very intelligent people get bored and very bad grades in school) as well as any emotional or mental illnesses you may have.

Subjective artsy thinkers are prone to depression, because they feel much more what they think than someone who is a more objective information-based thinker.

If you have experienced mania (need less sleep, eating less, spending too much, increased sex drive, drinking, gambling, etc. going out of control and through the roof) antidepressants can bring on mania.

If so, you need a different kind of med for bipolar disorder, and antidepressants alone will not work.

We're all here to support each other, and we all understand.

You know but I am not so sure I am bi-polar.. My family seems to spur most of these thoughts and naturally world state etc but more the family.. Thats what drives me to the lows.. Basically I got to a point where honestly I think the way humanity or society is now is a waste.. Its an utter joke which is not worth continueing in this fashion.. I mean I am talking revolution overdue.. We are going screw this whole place up within a hundred years and in all honesty that means why have kids.. It would be like bringing them into what I consider hell.

I dont know..

you are depressed. You need to have your meds changed to those that may make a difference. stopping taking your meds is not the answer. The answer is to see the doc tell him how you feel and have meds changed.

No more meds.. If anything they made me worse tried quite a few