i just dont like the way i feel today. lately, as things have been going well for me, i am beginning to doubt that i am strong enough to continue living. it is no surprise. the only reason why i moved away from my family was to make it easier to end my life in the future. it has always lingered in the back of my mind as i excitedly tell others about my new job and life, but like clockwork, the actual plan always knows when to pop up. i guess i just need someone to tell me to live...
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