A little over a week ago, I OD'd. No worries, it did nothing and I was fine. In the process of everything though I hurt two people I deeply care about. They have not spoken to me since.

All day that day I was popping pills and did so over an 8 hour period. When I told one of these friends what I had done, she called for help. I ran, literally. Got in my car and took off before help arrived. Plan failed they were waiting for me when I got back.
However that is where I made many bad choices. I lied. I told them I was not suicidal, I told them I had only taken 8 when I had taken 30. I told them my friend had her own issues trying to defer the seriousness of the situation.
I was given one hour to get my kids to their dads and myself to an ER. When I got there I lied to them as well thinking my labs would blow my story and when it didnt I was sent home and never pursued getting anymore help.
I have since gotten more help. I meet with a lady from Crisis Services once a week now and I see a new therapist on Friday. I talked to him on the phone on Saturday for near an hour and it was really nice. I have a med appointment scheduled now but not until Jan 15th. I have continued going to CVAB during the week randomly when I can and talking with a few of the peer support people.
I confessed to the police that I lied to them. I told the new therapist that I lied. I told the peer support people that I lied. I told Crisis Services that I lied.
I AM SORRY!!!! Please forgive me. I was wrong and I know I need to get help. I am looking at going in on Friday after my kids go to their dads and staying as long as it takes to get me through this.
Please...I can't lose anymore friends....
If anyone talks to Artsygirl or Caine(both who have left DS) tell them I am deeply sorry and that I want a chance to make things right.