A few days ago I said some things about members of this community that were not positive. I referred to you as a "group" whom if some people are not a part of, they get ignored. While this was said in confidence to my wife, I should have not said it at all. You know, the old, if you have nothing nice to say...... Anyhow, I said that out of frustration. I have a very hard time telling anyone how I feel, much less strangers. I then get upset easily when people don't respond to what little I do write as quickly as I might think they should. I think it is a self esteem issue that goes way back with me. So, I then see other people being responded to, see how quickly my wife was accepted, and feel "ignored" when it doesn't happen for me. This leads to increased depression, and you know the rest. Please accept my apology to each and every one of you. What I said was wrong and hurtful. I see that there are many kind and caring people on this site who are doing their best to help people while dealing with their own issues. I wish you all the best. I see what Always meant about hanging out here too much. It gets to you. You will not see me here under this username after Monday or Tuesday. I asked Doug to close my account after seeing that what I had said was put out there for others to see. I will probably be back, but under a different name.