For one reason or another my life has always been a constant struggle. Just when it seems like it getting a little better and i start seeing the light at the end of this cold, dark, lonely tunnel it gets ripped away from me. I always feel like i have to prove that im not a mistake and the more i have it thrown in my face the deeper i slip into the darkness. Some of what were supposed to be happy good days were turned upsidedown cause i was once again reminded that i wasnt wanted.
I thought with the raise i found out i will be getting it would help to make things better and i could start getting ahead. But now mounting car problems and a holiday i just want to skip looming over my head has torn me down once again.
Illness has hit 3 people i love and care about very much and no one is getting better only worse. I cant lose all 3 at once i wont come back from that again. I dont know why it cant get better even for just a little while so i can catch my breath and regroup. I feel like god hates me and just wants me to forever suffer.
The demons have taken hold and the nightmares have begun again. Darkness is my enemy and im so so tired of it all. "Can you hear me screaming for you, im afraid im gonna die down here i need you because no one else can get me out of hell. Im suffocating waiting for you cause the angels dont fly down here. Can you hear me, can you see me, can you save me?"
Ive already poseted this to the rape support group. I kust want to share my story. Im ready toI’m going to take you back. No not to the beginning, but to the nights that will haunt me forever. Night 1: October 13, 2014. My 19th birthday, the night my whole life changed. Now this isn’t easy to write and I’m going to get in to major details. My birthday, I had to work that night at steak n...
i have just discovered I am a porn and sex Addict. I have been with my girlfriend for nearly 5 years now and sexually we are having quite a difficult time.I want to have sex all the time without the hard work which she hates. Which has limited us to having sex about once a week if we are lucky. That doesn’t sound to bad but I have quite a high sex drive.when we don’t have sex I instantly...