I am exhausted - I am so weak that it is often hard to breath - I am terribly depressed and had a panic attack yesterday because I drank too much coffee. first panic attack in about a year - Doc says to stay away from caffeine because of anxiety disorder but when you are like a zombie something has to give. I am so tired of being depressed. I am so tired of having no friends where I live. My job bores the crap out of me and I just dont see the point in continuing with life most of the time. If it were not for my hubby and dog and brother - I would have offed myself by now. I live for them so that they will have me around. suicide would be selfish, I just dont seem to have a purpose or desire in life anymore. I am so tired of it all. I have not been on here in a while because I have been so out of it. I am sorry if any of you have not gotten responses from me lately - I am just so out of it - or wish I were out of it - more likely.
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