Okay I had no idea where to put this so Im putting it on here because it can go with my depression.Ever since I can remember I have had a vivid imagenation but from the age of about four or five it became more and more real.And to this day I have massive trouble with it,when my depression or anxiety gets bad this 'fantasy land' or what ever it is does too.I can see things,like a hallucination but I know they arent real.Some times I feel like Im living two different lives.I find it can get me into trouble if I am suppose to do something and havent done it.I would describe it as extream day dreaming.My aunt is a christian and she believed it might be spiritul so she prayed for me and cast it out.My mind was blank all I could see in my head was white and I was totaly terrified because I had grown so use to it.It came back about a day later,I love and I hate it.The good thing is that it gives me very good creativity when writing(I can see what I am writing come to life) but the bad thing is that it can over power me and scare me half to death,I also find my personality can change too.Is this normal? Has anyone else got this?
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