I few days ago i had my closest friend on here remove me from her friends list and block me because she got offended by some things I said. I basically had a nervous breakdown when I got on and found out she deleted me. She was a great friend and I could talk to her about anything and she really seemed to care about me. Without her I feel so alone. When she deleted me, I started feeling suicidal and I created another account just to send her a message to tell her I'm sorry and that I really care about her and don't want her to hate me and mentioned that I'm feeling suicidal. She still did not reply.

So basically, she hates me and doesn't care if I go and kill myself. I know I fucked up and said a lot of stupid things, but I didn't mean the stuff I said. It's mostly stuff I said about women because I am always frustrated that no girls talk to me in real life. I understand her being offended, but hating me for it? Wanting me to kill myself? Do I deserve it?