My husband works for a major company that has him traveling out of town from 3am on monday till Friday. I work at Walmart who has me working every weekend so therefore I never get to spend time with my husband. Lately I've been calling off sick just to spend time with him. I'm scared its gonna cost me. So far they've been lenient with me but I fear eventually its gonna catch up with me. I'm searching for another job and I'm about to take CNA classes to better myself. During the week I get so depressed I can barely work. I go into the bathroom to cry. I cry so much at home when he's not here. I'm so tired when I come home that I can't even do dishes and he ends up doing them when he comes home. This store will not let me work every other weekend cuz I guess that's just their policy. I'd hate very much to quit because everyone is pressuring me to bust my @$$ to put it bluntly but I'm under so much stress. The managers always have me doing other peoples jobs and they pretty much use me cuz I suppose they feel they have me under a barrel. Its not fair. I've talked to them about changing my hours but they won't give you an 8-5 shift. I don't know what else to do. I need to work to make money but its just getting to be too much. I feel horrible about this. I feel so lazy and that's bumming me out too. I feel like I'm letting everyone and the world down. I feel like such a huge dissapointment...I'm trying to be a good wife but I'm so sad and downhearted. *tears* I'm at my wits end.
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